“This Consciousness is very interesting”
This Consciousness is very interesting. It has … it’s not scorn, indifference for all human ideas — all conventions, all principles, all moralities, it finds all of that … absolutely grotesque.
There are two things. Death, it doesn’t at all understand what we mean by that. And then, Money, to this consciousness, is buffoonery. Strange, I suddenly realize that the psychic being is almost like a witness, it’s a witness to the whole evolution of things, and it KNOWS, understands the deeper reasons.
It’s in the body that this Consciousness is so active, and so it feels it as buffoonery. And the attitude with regard to money is like … death, food and money: this Consciousness feels those are the three “awesome” things in human life. That’s its attitude. And then, it teaches the body to be otherwise.
It tolerates food; it says, “Very well, that’s the way you’re built, too bad for you, you’ve got to eat.”
And then, death … Just yesterday, I had an example. An accident took place. They’re wondering how it happened. As for me, I INSTANTLY saw that there was in the girl a psychic will to die (why? I don’t know). That was clear.
And how everything was arranged to favour that, it’s almost miraculous. [This is about the girl who drowned and died in the shallow end of the swimming pool.] Every precaution is in place, and not one worked.
And as soon as they told me the news of the accident, I immediately looked, and I saw, in the place of her psychic, a peaceful will. They were working hard, they did all they could. And the psychic was immutable, determined. But she didn’t know [that she was going to die]: it came through her vital to reach her, and she felt quite ill at ease.
This Consciousness was so conscious of the movement in everyone, of every reaction, it was extraordinary! And it’s this Consciousness that saw this, that showed me this: a psychic like this (same immutable gesture), like an irrevocable decision. And for this Consciousness, it’s like someone who decides to move to a new house, or to a new room, or even to change clothes …. “Why do you make so much, so much fuss about that?”
Last year, there was a boy who drowned at Gingee. So I looked: outwardly, they are vitally very strong and very egocentric, which would be the external, material reason that allows the accident to take place: they’re closed in on oneself, but with an inner solidity on which the psychic was leaning.
The other one too [the boy who drowned in the pond] wanted to go, but in his case it was very interesting: I saw Sri Aurobindo come and fetch him under water, and Sri Aurobindo said, “He will be born in the family” (he came back in a child), “he will come back in the first child to be born in the family.” And this girl, I don’t know yet what will happen, but her psychic being WANTED to go (for some reason or other).
The strange thing is that when you see things with this Consciousness, the PERFECTION of the organization is so TREMENDOUS that you are almost terrified! Normally, when she went down to the bottom they should have noticed it immediately — brought her up and it would have been over.
For this Consciousness, apart from a few individuals, human beings are weak.
Since it began, I’ve told you about this sense of a FORCE, an absolutely unusual force. And it’s this Consciousness. But it has a different character: it’s a force that sees things differently.
In this light, “Oh, these are good instruments, they’re strong enough for one to lean on them.” And all that is shown to the body. And to see life quite differently it feels stupid, consciously it’s in one way, and then out of construction, it’s tied down in the other way. So it feels very silly. But the Consciousness held it, it HELD it in its Consciousness until it had really understood everything in detail, and the thing was gone.
So when the lesson has been learned, when it has understood, seen clearly it’s gone, finished. And that night was so peaceful. It’s ten rungs above the ordinary material “peace,” completely. The peace of a psychic will so powerful, so tranquil. But the body understands that all that [emotions, reactions] was a necessary path to prepare receptive instruments.
I am increasingly convinced that WE KNOW NOTHING. We are in the presence of hidden wonders that elude us completely. But with this Consciousness, there is the why of everything: everyone’s reaction, why he acts in that way, and … And not once did it reproach anyone. It has explained everything in such a way that it becomes so luminous.
Have I contact with this Consciousness? I never even asked myself the question! I took it for granted. If I hadn’t had that experience of January Ist, when I felt it come, it was wholly concrete, like … like someone coming into the room.
Then this Consciousness took my consciousness. For a long while I saw, I looked, then it went away all of a sudden. It’s so independent of one’s will, aspiration, movements of consciousness — of everything. Fantastic!
This body was accustomed to having experiences under the psychic’s influence, in its adoration for … the Supreme Conscious Truth — in adoration. Its whole joy was there, it was fully satisfied. But since that time, it has had experiences — which the other parts of the being had IN THEIR OWN WAY, but now this way this physical way is so concrete! So tangible.
The body can say, “I have SEEN the Supreme Consciousness.” This body doesn’t believe in God … it believes in something much better than God!
In my case, my body can’t say anything: it has that same difficulty, a pain here, a pain there. But the Consciousness moves about, unhindered. It’s like something natural.
3 May 1869
The Winds of Wonder 
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