The Winds of Wonder

On the threshold of a great Secret

4 September 1971

I have noticed something, but lately it has become very concrete. When I speak, there is a Consciousness which is expressed, and that Consciousness is what’s important. To be at every moment as expressive of the Divine Consciousness as one can be — that’s the only important thing.

This body is trying its best to exist only in the Divine. If it could feel separate from the whole, it would be perfectly happy.

As for me  … this body does what it can. It can’t do much. It tries … it tries not to create any resistance. From time to time there’s something, a marvel, which lasts for a few seconds. But it’s …. Either we have to manage to make this body more plastic so it can be transformed, or else it will be for another life.

Although I must say that … Sri Aurobindo said to me, “Oh, to have to begin all that over again, the whole childhood and all that unconsciousness — no.” Before he left, he said no. “No, I shall return when it can be done in a supramental body.”

But there have to be bodies capable of lasting at will. He said, “The intermediate stage will be duration of life at will.” And I have the feeling that that is possible. Provided the body itself thinks only of one thing — transformation. When it is like this, then. I can spend hours — hours without moving — in a kind of receptive contemplation, and it seems like a second.

The sense of time is really curious. You see, there is a certain receptive contemplation, and there time simply ceases to exist. I sense I am on the threshold of a great Secret … It’s “something.”

The following is a footnote of the Conversation:

This is what the Mother wrote to Prithwi Singh in 1953 about the passing away of Sri Aurobindo: “At 1:26 in the morning, when I was in his room, he was steadily coming out of his body into mine; it was so much that I felt a physical friction in the cells of my body; with it a great power entered into me and I felt capable of resuscitating him. But when I told him, he said, ‘No, it is purposely that I have left my body, I will not come back into it, I will return in a new body, the first body built in the supramental way.’ But,” Mother added, “he did not tell me the time when he would return.” This is what Mother wrote to Sujata’s father, Prithwi Singh, in 1953 about the passing away of Sri Aurobindo: “At 1:26 in the morning, when I was in his room, he was steadily coming out of his body into mine; it was so much that I felt a physical friction in the cells of my body; with it a great power entered into me and I felt capable of resuscitating him. But when I told him, he said, ‘No, it is purposely that I have left my body, I will not come back into it, I will return in a new body, the first body built in the supramental way.’ But,” Mother added, “he did not tell me the time when he would return.”