The Winds of Wonder

… no longer here, not yet there

24 July 1971

We are no longer here, not yet there. So it seems stupid. The body is more and more conscious, and it is conscious of the old habits that pull backwards but it is also conscious of the new possibilities that are there, that try to … There’s only one movement to make, a movement of adherence, and … everything would be all right — MARVELLOUSLY all right.

The body feels it’s no longer here: this holds no reality for it anymore, but it’s not yet THERE. So it’s like this (oscillating). It aspires. It has learned to invoke the Divine all the time, whatever it is doing, whether it’s speaking or not; whatever it does, there is a constant invocation. That way, it’s all right. But … it’s not positive yet.

As soon as I go into deep silence, the Presence becomes concrete, evident. Then it’s helpful. But as soon as I speak, I am … (crumbling).