An immensity opening in the Light
28 May 1969
There’s only one solution, the direct contact of the physical with the Supreme. But the body’s cells … they are ABSOLUTELY convinced, and they keep trying and trying, all the time. There’s only one solution: “You, You alone, to You — You alone exist.” This body has taken its stand. But one must be very enduring.
31 May 1969
A CONFUSION — it’s a dark confusion. Sri Aurobindo always said: the confusion becomes much more intense and dark just when the light is to come.
These last few days, faced with the horror of the perception of things, this body started weeping. It didn’t weep materially, but with an inner intensity, it said, “Oh, why does this world exist?” But it instantly gets the Response — an immensity opening in the Light.
But how can That, that immensity, become this? “How did That become this?” But the process to change this back into That is what I don’t know. But the body felt everything so … horrible.
But never in this body’s whole entire existence, has it felt such a … total and profound sorrow as on that day … Oh, and at the end of it all, Bliss. And then, it faded away. But as if all this, which is so awful, did not exist.
I can’t say, it was something that contained horror, dread, sorrow — and a compassion, oh, intense! Never, never had the body felt things like that. Afterwards, everything came — every single thing — with a Smile and a resplendent Light; as if the Lord were saying, “See, I am everywhere, in all things.” It was unbelievable. But there’s no communication between the two. … that was when the body said, “What? Shall we have to go on and on with that? But salvation is PHYSICAL—not at all mental, but PHYSICAL. I mean it’s not in escape: it’s… HERE. That I felt very strongly.
But the body had a few very difficult hours. And it says, “All right,” it’s fully ready for dissolution or … There was no question of that; the question was to … know how to receive the Cure. And what is the Cure like? — Inexpressible with our means.
But it’s not that it’s veiled: it’s HERE. Why? What in the whole deprives you of the power to live THAT? It’s here, HERE! All the rest, including death and everything, really becomes a falsehood, that is to say, something that does not exist. …
All I know, is that it’s concentrated here. The concentration is here, the work is here.
If you asked the body, it would say, I don’t know if I am alive, I don’t know if I am dead. Because that’s really how it is. And it feels that exclusively depends on … whether the Truth is perceived or not.
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